Back to LA & random thoughts

Wow! Crazy past few weeks! Went to Vegas, then back to LA, then to the bay area, then I drove back to LA. I'm exhausted!

I guess I can't complain too much, things have been pretty exciting! I finally got to be a ring girl for Strikeforce at the HP Pavillion. The event was "Carano vs Cyborg," the top two leading ladies in MMA were going head to head. It was such an exhilarating experience and one that I'm truly thankful for! I can't wait to do it again! I'm definitely a fan of the sport; Gegard Mousasi was the most impressive fighter there. He went into the octagon with a calm and collected yet confident expression that communicated to the audience he was going to beat the sh*t out of his opponent. It was easy for him. If you have Showtime, watch it, and you'll see what I'm talking about it. I heard they showed the ring girls too, so maybe you'll see me. ;)

So today I found out that someone was wondering if I were a porn star! LOL. Based off my complete and diverse portfolio, I wonder why someone would assume that. It's funny to me. I know people are always going to make misjudgments, so I guess when I hear things like that I laugh instead of getting mad. I know who I am and that's all that matters.

I'm in LA for ten days and then I'm off to Vegas again for the Magic Clothing Show. I think this will be my fourth time to Vegas in the last three months? LOL. I Love it there. It's becoming my third home.

I haven't worked out in a week! Ahh! It's killing me too; I feel like a whale.=( Starting my ten day diet tomorrow. LOL. I'm so bad. Sometimes I think I need a personal trainer, but then I tell myself to stop being "weak sauce" and to just suck it up and discipline myself.

I think the most enjoyable thing about going home was seeing my parents. I had a few great conversations with my mom and she supports my modeling 100%. She hasn't seen all my photos, but she's seen some sexy ones. lol. She knows what I do. When I told her about gogo dancing and asked her opinion about it, she replied, "well, as long as the important parts are covered." LOL. She always asks when my next gigs are too. So cute*. I told her I'm going to pursue modeling til I turn 26, so another three good years! Maybe more if I keep to it, but I think I would want to move on to my other plans. It's weird saying this, but when I went home, I really felt that she was proud of me and my accomplishments so far. It makes me so happy to hear that because I look up to mom so much, she is the most fearless and hard working woman I know. She's also the craziest. Haha.

So today I made the long drive from San Francisco to LA in my little Hyundai Tibi Gt. It's my new baby. I had a lot of time to just think things through and what I want to do with my life and career. I also came to the conclusion that I need to start taking action now instead of waiting for the "right" time. I realized people who don't take action are just afraid of what repercussions may come. It's is also defined as being cautious, but I just think it's fear. The biggest risk is not taking one...which is why I take so damn many. And also, don't let others take charge of your future, your destiny is in your own hands. People don't squash your dreams, you squash your own when you believe it's unattainable.

It's all in the mind baby. =)